aside from short spurts of nighttime sleep the trickiest part of growing our family ten days ago, has been the sibling balance.
i want to have time and energy for everyone.
i don't want anyone to feel slighted, to feel less important, to feel they always have to wait.
in many ways i know i'm being unreasonable, but i'm trying to find the best way to speak to each son in the company of the other...to emphasize our roll as family members, the important job we have to take care of each other, and for nicolai i often point out that he was once this small and had so many of these same needs.
we're learning slowly how to treat one another and there are many sweet moments tucked in between more stressful, tense moments.
hopefully the latter will become few and far between as time passes.